so she dances....

I believe that everyone has a song or a melody about their life..
It's the matter that it has been sung by millions or it is still kept under the covers..
Each and everyone of us can and able to create our own music
that is trully meaningful and inspire others..
that's what music is trully about..
I too  have my own music, and this are the words that reflect my life for now..

i know a girl who lives in a big house,
built of steel and bricks..
with no doors..
she's happy and sad in the same time..
dunno what love is..
and what is it like to get her heart broken..
so she,
looks out the window each night
hoping and praying
to step outside..

One fateful night she did..
the taste of freedom carried her away
away from reality...
oh the happiness,the joy..
she met a man and she fell in love..
everything was sweet and lovely...
as time passes...
slowly,
dissapointment and sadness start to settle in here heart..
and her her heart has been broken for the very first time..
all she felt was bitterness and hatred..
her heart became hard and cold..

now,
all she wanted to do is to go back to that doorless house
and stay there..
she travels far and wide
her journey back home..

Along the way she met new people
with different way of looking at life..
she stays with them for a while..
taking in all she can..
the knowledge and ways to live..
some breaks her to pieces
some gave her the strength to move on...
then she found a song that reaches out to her..
she can't really tell what is her feelings..
it's a mixture of everything she felt...
sadness,joy,dissapointment,courage...
all melt into one..
so she starts to dance..
in and out the crowd,
under the moonlight..
on the dusty ground...
dance and dance till all her sadness went away..

after months of walking,
she finally reach the house..
she felt scared to go in..she wanted to turn back and run..
she look back and remembered
all those people she met along the way...
behind her..
she smiled and looks back at the house..
she picks up a stone and start to hit it against the wall..
she hits and hits....till there's no more strength left in her..
as she was about to let go the stone..
another pair of hands
holds her and hits the wall..
she was suprise and look back..
all those angels..whom she meet along tha way
come to help her..
soon more and more hands and rocks hit the thick wall..
bit by bit the wall start to give way...
first a crack,
then a hole.
it get's bigger and bigger till she finally can go through...
she walks in with fear..

a hand hold hers..
that gave her courage and strength..
together they link hands and walk in..
fill the house with laughter and sound
the house don't seem to  be a house anymore
it was now a home..
a home in a sea of strange land..
a home that is made by the strangers that she met along the way..
which are now her friends...
who gave her strength to move on
with life..
face all the challenges life could throw at her...
she learns to forgive and accept
and to look at the goodness in everyone she met..
it's just the beginning for her..
she vowe to look at life as differently as possible ...
and always be kind to herself...

She sits by the window one night,
looking at the stars..
and thank God for all the people she met..
she took a step
it turn to a waltz,
lifts her hands up to the sky and moves with the music..
so she dances.....

I Wanna....

I wanna meet new people..
I wanna meet new friends..
I wanna get rid of the junk I'm carrying
I wanna be a millionaire..
I wanna be a super hero ..
I wanna be famous..
I wanna be glamourous..
I wanna have a big house..
I wanna have a boyfriend..
I wanna have diamonds..
I wanna have my mini and Audi
I wanna have my gucci and prada
I wanna be and have all of this,
oh how I have to work hard to get it..
but the one thing that I want to be the most...
Is to be me.
And I shall change the world.

let it flow

music is the most powerful thing that connects people without seeing the colour of your skin, your status, how rich or how poor, dumb or smart it just unify us to one..
music can do wonders.it can mend a broken heart, a broken soul, make you laugh, make you cry, inspire you to do great things..that you thought you cannot do..bring back memories..

i have songs that bring back memories of the good times i ad with my friends and family..
each time i hear the songs it will never fail to put a smile on my face...
why don't each of us pick a song that represents a person that you care, so that they will become a melody that you will sing to everyday and eventually you'll never forget them because music are hard to forget..

try it...who knows, it might just help you make the bonds between you and the person you care closer.....
there's no harm in trying..

have a nice day ahead and stay fabulously gorgeous..

xoxo
KatDeLyna

It's almost coming to the end for the year 2010
and still there is a lot of things I wanted to do before the year end. Want to start my mew year fresh.I manage to change some of the bad habits I had. Learn to appreciate my friends more. Found people that are more worthy to love which is myself.my greatest friends lisa chee,victor oh,chong wai ling, shareen. You guys have always been there for me a lot. Been catching up with family too. Cassie, ESmee, eleanor and daphne you guys rock!! Relationships breaks for good reason. I found out that if the relationship is making you ill, it's time to ditch it. So for all the people who had been blocked or remove from my list, you guys are the desease that makes me ill. Working to a healthier me and hope this will last. Constantly remind myself and all is good. Look for the goodness in everyone. No matter how bad they may be. But if it's destroying you, it's best to walk away. It's hard in the beginning, but trust me once you walk away everything else will fall in place. And yeah, I'm now in a deal with myself, no relationship with guys. Intimate ones that is. Friends are welcome.
Anyway, I think I tALk too much. Till next time.

Bye,
xoxo

You

You,
have been my inspiration
to write and dream of what i want to be.
You,
have been my wish
that i wished.
You,
have always been in
my heart, thoughts and;
in everything i do.
Every song i hear ,
i think of you...
Everything i see,
reminds me of you..
Everytime when i'm down,
the memories that i have with you
put's back the smile on my face..
Though i can't never be with you
but,
i would like to thank you,
for all the memories you gave me..

Moving on..

time to move on with life...
everything is going smothly so far..
there are bumps here and there..
taking up some skills and new books..
learning to smile and carry my head high..
i'm now walking between the fine line of the light and darkside..
enjoying the little things in life
appreciating the simple things in life..
stop searching for the things that haven't intended to be given by Him yet..
believe that everything will come with time..
just gotta stop searching
for they say the best thing comes to you when you are not  looking..
and last but not least...
give myself a chance to be......ME..

tell me why?

i was getting down the cab at my aunt's home when my neighbour's little boy( he's only 3) said wah..che che linda is so beautiful....wahahahahaha...what a cute little boy...then yesterday as i was walking home i saw a family of three and a little boy was walking between them...he turn around and gave me a smile as charming as he could...aw.....so cute! what is becoming to this young children nowadays...sigh then i thought of something...why we adults have to be so complicated? why can't we be like an innocent child? just say what we feel and take it like they do....yet they get upset but within minutes they are okay with it as though nothing had happened.
adults nowadays getting more and more difficult to get close to....sigh why?

finally..so..now,what's next?

It's been two very long weeks and lots of things had happen...matters that confused my head and matters of the heart...i was left with an impression that someone was mad at me..but after two wondering weeks finally i confronted the person and apparently he's not...another on pulak felt like he's avoiding me....now really confused and still unsure...well give him time then...anyways pushing the matters of the heart aside...work is like crazy...more and more work to be done as the year end approaches..time seems to fly really,really fast...with preparation of the school concert, studies and wanna do some new stuff..planning to get a tattoo next month,bungee jump after that,hmmmm....what else..ah go for a holiday...the sun, sea the beach..ah...when can i see ya..?
i need to concentrate on work and study now so heart is getting harden as time past..not even him can affect me now..i have worked my way to not show any feelings..unnessary ones that is..i still smile cry like a normal human tho...lol...
then we'll see where it goes from there then..
oh ya....i'm an otaku..
hhehehe....and proud of being one..
i nelieve in angels and there's one for me out there..
i just gotta find you..

well that's all for now..till next time..

xoxoxoxo
enjoy life to the fullest!

first step...

a lady told me today that she's gonna make a grown up decision to leave the place she called home for many years. It's not gonna be easy,that is what exactly ii told her..but then it got me thinking, how many of us dreamed or planned but never have the guts to do it? The first step is always the hardest to take. It's like to take the first step to jumped into the unknown. many of us are comfortable in our skin right now..we dare not to venture out of our comfort zone for the fear of change and what to expect...Let us put it this way, move out of your comfort zone, see what you can discover about yourself..you might just see things or do things that you yourself wouldn't expect that you could do it.. embrace the unknown and live life to the fullest without regrets or doubts. yes the fear will still be there but face it and you will overcome it. be bold and take the first step and conquer what life has in store for you. You are great and incredible despite what the world told you. everyone in this world is born to greatness. they are just yet to be discovered..look forward and remember the past but do not hold on to it. let it serve you as a reminder of what you have done. learn from it. our past is one of the wisest teacher we could ever ask for..
word of advise..change is never for the faint hearted..you are a brave one when you decide to take the first step...charge it not only with your heart but also mind body and soul..set yourself free!

upside down,inside out

a lot has happen in past few week..unexpected things happen...i got myself new friends, new crowd, got myself kissed...(by who?),went for cover girl search and got into an accident....sigh..a lot of things had happen lately and some of them really open my eyes..number one...dun rush into things...one wise old man once told me that do not rush onto a relationship..just go with the flow..so,going with the flow then i shall..to lead a blind man is not to walk behind or in front of him but to walk beside him..now i'm wondering who is the blind one? lol...signing up to a gym is one of the best decision i have done in life..no regrets..i should have done it earlier...Celebrity Fitness Sunway Pyramid rocks...and i finally pour my heart out to a crush i have crushed on for 2 years..man...what's next i'm not sure..but i do hope the turnout will be good..(cross my fingers), there are also mistakes that i made that i regret..we'll i can't turn back time but i'll learn from my mistakes and move on..been elected as president of a club, work study and putting back the pieces of my heart and my life can be exhausting...phew..need to lay back for a moment and take a breather and off to become a super women again..aim in life is getting clearer and closer..now the next thing is to climb mount kinabalu and maybe sky diving...gonna get myself to learn how to skate and swim...what else do i want to do? hmmm? gonna have to think about it...backpacking? hmm..i know one person i can kidnapped to go backpacking with me....hehehehe....and to all the wonderful friends i have thank you and love you guys...you know who you are..
Alrighty then, that's all for now..i'll write again in the next blog...bye.

xoxoxoxox

Melynda

grey skies..

Whenever i look up and see gray skies, my heart would have this gloomy feeling...this is exactly what i felt today..
friends i use to be close with is now so far away..people around you are not genuine..insincere and fakes....i've became this bitter person and i start to like this bitter personality..oh no..what is becoming of me?
to be bitter for the better..?

xoxo
melynda

Searching....

I'm now looking for an apartment to rent...got to get away from this place...god,how can this people live this way...i wonder the human' durability towards dirt...sigh..anyway..i saw this fantastic appartment...it was beautiful....gonna check out the price...hope i get the place..(crossing fingers)awesome view,three swimming pools,two gyms and i can't remember! too excited...hmm....meet more and more awesome people...circle is getting bigger...hihi.....people that i know earlier starts to dissapear..lost contact just like that..anyway....they are still friends...

anyway...
everything is going well now..life and work...just a lil headache from college....dreams are getting closer i can almost smell it..

all nyou guys have a great day and stay beautiful..

muaxs
xoxoxo

tick tock

move into a new place not too far from my new working place.love the job i'm now in.yes it is stress like crazy,but hey...that's what comes in a job rite. my roommates are super cool and kind..found a swimming pool near my area..hah can't wait to wait to jump in. my brain is now suffering from meltdown due to assignments that are mounting up and life.now i can throw in work into that meltdown too..now, i'm seeing my friends and family members slowly staring to settling down for good.time is ticking for me...tick tock tick tock

F**king Posers..

it's really irritating when people try to make you to be like them..it's like they are some cool big shot or something.What they don't actually realize that they are nothing without us..they are the one that constantly evolved to the people surrounding them.Sometimes it's sad or even pathetic to see these people who are the one enslave to the world and trying to change others..they doesn't like it when some is being true to oneself.they can't stand it and say it was all an act to gain attention from others. Do not call another person a phony without looking in the mirror first..You want to see one,just turn around and you'll the greatest phony in your life..YOURSELF!

bliss!

everything seem to pick up now. my life,work and study. still having problem with money tho..haha...don't we all..
college is giving me headache.drats those assignments! oh well,just get on with it. I found true friend during my hard time.finally one of my wish had came true...hope to find many more like them.but in this world full of pretenders,it's not that easy at all.and one more thing,don't give kids read fairy tales cause they don't exist in the real world...

DRats..

it's been months since i last blog.many thing had happen in between. australia was fun and hope to go back there again. the people i met there is even more awesome than the place itself! really missed them all. move out of my hostel and now settled in sunway.but looks like i'm gonna shift again. went jobless for about a month and half. enjoyed it for the first week but slowly i'm losing my mind as the days passed by. i realized that i need to work..haha typical malaysian. fell in love and got my heart broken after that. sigh.....guess that's life..
anyway life goes on,meet new people and go to new places. i'm making myelf to be seen and known. found a great job with great bosses and work mates..can't believe my luck.especially one of them whom i admire for she being strong facing love and life. i learn that i should stand up everytime i fall and never ever let life bring you down. i create my own destiny not by luck. i've set my goals for this year and will achieve them.