it's time..

i'm slowly starting to realise
that i'm starting to take my first step
towards the life i want to be.
i'm starting to appreciate myself and friends around me.
i'm starting to stand up for myself
accepting myself,flaws and all..
i finally can accept that there are people that can accept me for all i am..
it's time to take charge!
love the people i want..
no more floor mat..
hate those i want..(hehe)
most of all.....
chasing through life
for the life that i have dreamt since i was a little girl.

Letters from the past

I decide to move on.. No longer holding on to my past. No longer hoping or waiting for something to happen. Guess two years of waiting is enough. This is a letter that I wrote to the guy that I had a crush on for two years.. He is a wonderful guy, hope he'll find a good girl one day when his heart is ready.

Dear max,
why am I thinking about you again? Why? You seemed to linger in my thoughts.today I remembered about you. My heart ached. But there's no more tears this time. I miss everything about you. I miss you. But I guess we are nothing more than friends. I understand. My heart is being broken again. Tears had flownand my mind has only you. I realize you're like a star.a star that is so beutiful where I can look at and wished on, but can never reach..

Soulmate

Do you believe that two souls will be one when they cross each others path? At first I didn't believe it. But after meeting one man, this seemed to crossed my head a lot.. Is there such thing as a soulmate? Or is it that we connected because of our similiarities? But you can't help it when you find that someone who loves the same things you do, sees the world like you do and understand what you feel will make us stop and think, is there such thing exist?

my Korean fetish...

1.Men...*swoon,drools*

Daniel Henney...this man is God send..God must have spent a lil more time when creating him..damn his perfect!

Dennis Oh...another God's perfect creation...better looking than Brad Pitt..

once again

pain....
it's true that sometimes pain makes you stronger..
pain makes you remember.
pain makes you learn.
but,
pain also makes you see life from another perspective.
pain teaches you in a way others can't.
pain teach you to push on,
to move forward and to move on...
pain give you the courage to take the first step.
pain helps you to close another chapter in your life
when pain starts to heal and subside..
tears will turn to laughter
a smile will start to appear
wounds will start to heal
and we start to appreciate life once again in a new light.

Smile, dun cry

When I look into your eyes,
see in that beautiful eyes looking back at me.
and i feel like i'm on top of the world.
When you touch me,
The slightest touch sends shivers to every cell in me.
Your voice is like warm honey,
like a soft blanket wrap around to keep me warm.
Your laughter is like snowflakes,
mesmerizing and impossible to resist.
But sadly your not mine.
So, I can only see you from afar.
So near yet so far away.
To see you with someone else,hoping that person could be me.
wishing and hoping for something that is impossible.
I wish i could tell that i have this crush on you,
for years now.
But i know it can never happen for you never look at my way.
So i put on a smile,
and hide it so that you won't see.

dreams

people said i'm a dreamer,
for i dream in class, dream during parties, and even sometimes in a conversation!
dreaming is not something bad you see,
as for me,
it take you where you think you'll never been to,
by dreaming of what you want to be
or have
it can help you to achieve it faster..
but,
provided how you act on those dreams that you created..
people said dreams will never come true...
of course it wouldn't,
if all you do is just sitting on that ass of yours..
you think, that money or your dreams will fall from the sky if you just sit there?
HERE'S THE DIFFERENCE..
between a dreamer with action and none..
a person who dreams and do what it takes to make it happen
will excel much further than those who don't..
do not be afraid of hard work
for sometimes, opportunity come disguise as work...
do everything whole heartedly..
and believe that your dream will come true..
start dreaming now...
but a word of caution though..
PLEASE DON'T DREAM WHEN YOU'RE AT SOMETHING IMPORTANT!
(e.g driving,cooking)
for you won't achieve it if you're dead, wouldn't you?
so go ahead,
start dreaming...
DO YOU DARE TO DREAM?

If I could be where you are...

Where are you this moment?
only in my dreams.
You're missing, but you're always
a heartbeat from me.
I'm lost now without you,
I don't know where you are.
I keep watching, I keep hoping,
but time keeps us apart

Is there a way I can find you,
is there a sign I should know,
is there a road I could follow
to bring you back home?

Winter lies before me
now you're so far away.
In the darkness of my dreaming
the light of you will stay

If I could be close beside you
If I could be where you are
if I could reach out and touch you
and bring you back home
Is there a way I can find you
Is there a sign I should know
Is there a road I could follow
to bring you back home to me

life as i see it now...

 STOP,LOOK and LISTEN.....

i'm listening and watching the news about the world devastating destructions going on lately..all this happening has got me thinking of how i actually look at my life now...the earthquakes ....

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Famine














and others...millions of dead fish before tsunami strikes and whales beaching










I think it's time to go back to our roots,time to realize what damage have we done to the world....in this world where kindness,honesty, understanding, compassion and empathy are slowly diminishing from the world..signs have been given, all we need to do is to repent and  vow to be better...predictions are eerily coming true so far..God still have mercy on us,Malaysia...think about his...so far the countries that had been in turmoil are all the neighbouring countries AROUND us..(except Singapore..) have we ever thought, why are we still save from all this??? 

Let's close our eyes and PRAY.....

I have to confess this..
I actually hate the idea of being alone
hate the fact that I'm alone...
Hate the fact that I'm cool being alone..
Pretending that nothing effects me
pretending I'm happy
pretending to be me..
Till I can't differentiate what is
real and what is not..

it's a start..

this year i vowed to stick to my promises i've made earlier this year..
i have completed a few and the rest is well underway..
now i'm thinking...
should i set a goal that is more challenging??
for example ...be nice with my enemies...or trying to be nice and tolerate my new "boss"..
let my ego down a little...aw shucks....that's not an easy thing to do...
learn to tolerate men?hmmmm.....what else.....aha.....get a washboard abs...which is a must..
keeping to my promises....or i should start searching for me out there in the world....lately i really feel like running away...leave my job and just travel...go on a quest in search of Me...

this heart is not as strong as it used to be...

this hands are not as sturdy as it once was...

the mind is not as focused as it confused of what it wants..
for the mind is constantly clashes with the heart...
with these feet,
i journey through my life..
walking through the flowers and the thorns...
inhaling the sweetness ;
and tasting the bitterness of life...
my experience has trully been an exceptional teacher to me....
the falls i experienced make me stronger when i stand again...

as time is ticking by...
i'll find ways to cherish all those simple moments..
all the one i love...

and find my passion towards life...

adios suckers!

woke in the morning feeling  that this year could actually be different for me...

so the first thing i did was to throw out all the junk i was holding on to, thinking that it will be worth treasured memories..
that felt good...
then after that, i wrote a hate letter to all those that i hate....with a smile and post it to them
that felt good too...
next i open up my Facebook and look through it,
started scanning my friends list....
it all started with one click,
then it good, then another, and another..
before i know it i'd deleted 100+ people of my friends list..
and that felt GREAT!!!

i decided to make this year 2011,
an eventful year for..
not afraid to say what i wanna say..
i'm tired of considering people's feelings and mine being kept in the dark..
i'm tired of people telling me "oh, you should behave like this, you should do this..you should loose weight and etc.." well you know what?......FUCK YOU!!!!
lol
people say i'm plastic,
well maybe i am...but why do you care..it's not that i've gain extra hours from your life
before you trying to change ME, LOOK into the mirror first...
i'm still the nice person i used to be,
but only this time i'm not afraid to bite back is you agitate me..
so try me..
if you think you can't' handle me...walk away now...
hmmm..relationship wise..it's NO longer a priorty..
well if you dun like me just say so..it's easier and get it over with....
dun give me the fucking "well you a nice girl " and blah,blah,blah shit....
I'm tired taking all the efforts...
so, you can FUCK OFF!!!!

anyways,
happy new year everyone..
make everything you do that is worth doing..
DO NOT LIVE YOU LIFE FOR ANOTHER PERSON!
unless it's family or some friends who are really worthy to die for..
and yeah...raise your glass people and celebrate yourself for being who you are!

xoxo,
KatDeLyna