I have to confess this..
I actually hate the idea of being alone
hate the fact that I'm alone...
Hate the fact that I'm cool being alone..
Pretending that nothing effects me
pretending I'm happy
pretending to be me..
Till I can't differentiate what is
real and what is not..

it's a start..

this year i vowed to stick to my promises i've made earlier this year..
i have completed a few and the rest is well underway..
now i'm thinking...
should i set a goal that is more challenging??
for example ...be nice with my enemies...or trying to be nice and tolerate my new "boss"..
let my ego down a little...aw shucks....that's not an easy thing to do...
learn to tolerate men?hmmmm.....what else.....aha.....get a washboard abs...which is a must..
keeping to my promises....or i should start searching for me out there in the world....lately i really feel like running away...leave my job and just travel...go on a quest in search of Me...

this heart is not as strong as it used to be...

this hands are not as sturdy as it once was...

the mind is not as focused as it confused of what it wants..
for the mind is constantly clashes with the heart...
with these feet,
i journey through my life..
walking through the flowers and the thorns...
inhaling the sweetness ;
and tasting the bitterness of life...
my experience has trully been an exceptional teacher to me....
the falls i experienced make me stronger when i stand again...

as time is ticking by...
i'll find ways to cherish all those simple moments..
all the one i love...

and find my passion towards life...